Black Girl Chronicles 18

Mental drainage is real…..

I wish I could describe how hard it is to be a black person living in the United Kingdom or Britain which ever term is better, today I’ve been feeling overwhelmed as if there is a elephant on my chest and I can’t breathe  but yet I just about manage to.

It doesn’t help when all you read is about racism happening to black students in uk universities. We are aware that these incidents happen all the time but I guess now it’s close to home it’s making me suffer. Feeling like we have the world on our shoulders and people are pushing it down crushing us.

We struggle to stay alive but shit is of no surprise!!! White people in this country will deny racism until their dying breath but that very same racism is now eating my goodness away I wish I believed in the power of prayer but honestly I don’t believe in a change.

Racism on twitter, racism on my YouTube vids is making me question whether I will continue to do vids speaking on race because those topics are the ones that cause the most trouble. I guess it’s working as the attention is there but is it the attention I want.

When I started my YouTube channel I did not know what to expect it started of mi doing snap chat and petty where i would do a five minute rant that I would upload to Instagram after condensing it (making sure it made sense) then I started uploading them to YouTube and they got the views not a lot but they were watched.

Now I do proper YouTube vids which I do not edit purely because I like to say things of the top of my mind that is my formula I could add animation etc but that’s not mi I will however start adding in an introduction and some music attached to that but that’s it.

My YouTube channel is now a variety of topics which I chose to talk on currently my most watched vid is the one I did back in December on Zimbabwe and that is where the racist comments started. Let alone the xenophobic comments I received from my fellow black people who said I shouldn’t talk on their situation because I’ve got it easy in Britain.

Does that not prove we need to work better to gain knowledge and true understanding of one another because the longer we stay divided the worse things will get and white people will stay ruling with their supremacy.

One thing I do know is all of this will make me stronger once I break through this feeling of emptiness and helplessness…,,

As they say ‘the pen is mightier then the sword’

Sistah Souljah